Historic in two senses: realising my POINT OF VIEW, and potentially capturing a big market share in Thailand.
Realising my point of view and how i have sentenced myself to a life of 'I am a boy' all along. Thanks to J, yet I thought I was doing him a favor by hanging out with him, little did I know how sharp and powerful he is as a coach. Even the way I address people, "dude", "wtf", "crap", "shit" so on and so forth. The way I like squarish bags, pants, jackets (instead of shawl or scarf, this was quite shocking as i never realised).
I just realised deep down I am a girl trapped in the need to be a boy, inside the point of view that I sentenced myself to. Guys, L, A, M, they all think they can leave and I will not be hurt. Little did they know how much I hurt. I even thought I can act like a man and not care, but at the end of the day I realised I am just a girl, waiting to be loved and cared for. Oh how suppressed have I been!
Also important is realising I have collapsed my natural desires with wanting to be back in with A. The ultimate solution, as J correctly pointed out, will be to cut off ties w A in this whole FWB business and be committed to be in a stable and fulfilling relationship. No action, no results! New action, new results! This is my commitment to myself!!!
Second is N joined and her potentially starting out to be a top leader in Thailand. Seriously exciting!!! Also stressful as I really want to be of great support as a leader as well.
Realising my point of view and how i have sentenced myself to a life of 'I am a boy' all along. Thanks to J, yet I thought I was doing him a favor by hanging out with him, little did I know how sharp and powerful he is as a coach. Even the way I address people, "dude", "wtf", "crap", "shit" so on and so forth. The way I like squarish bags, pants, jackets (instead of shawl or scarf, this was quite shocking as i never realised).
I just realised deep down I am a girl trapped in the need to be a boy, inside the point of view that I sentenced myself to. Guys, L, A, M, they all think they can leave and I will not be hurt. Little did they know how much I hurt. I even thought I can act like a man and not care, but at the end of the day I realised I am just a girl, waiting to be loved and cared for. Oh how suppressed have I been!
Also important is realising I have collapsed my natural desires with wanting to be back in with A. The ultimate solution, as J correctly pointed out, will be to cut off ties w A in this whole FWB business and be committed to be in a stable and fulfilling relationship. No action, no results! New action, new results! This is my commitment to myself!!!
Second is N joined and her potentially starting out to be a top leader in Thailand. Seriously exciting!!! Also stressful as I really want to be of great support as a leader as well.
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