Things to say to a man

1. You are such a man
2. I feel safe around you
3. I feel bad for the other women that I have you

Things to do this year
1. become a student of people - what makes people attractive. if i am attracted to someone, why? why is this man attracted to that girl?
2. people want to fall in love.
3. create value for myself - yes i will have a drink but i will have gin & tonic instead of shot
4. get good with rejection
when was the last time i got rejected?
The sad part is I have not put myself on the line - the last time was probably AL. I have been avoiding getting myself into this.

For this year, I will make myself feel good first, then I will let other ppl know about it and I will put myself on the line more.

What is it abt her that makes her magnetic?
- well groomed, fashionably dressed
- well mannered and interesting conversation from knowing everything
- light and radiance
- fun and insignificant
- health

What message am I not carrying across?
Light, fun & insignificance
Femininity
Radiance
Healthy

Too much in my head judging myself to be not good enough

沒有跌倒時的苦澀，又怎會有站起來後的滿足感。

I have rebounded from a week ago. I was feeling depressed and unhappy, was getting sick and getting antsy about the whole Lyoness business. I was getting impatient about the business and getting bored with it.

Then JC came back and I had a chat with her, it turned out that I quite possibly got in touch with some bad things (could be a combination of going to clubs to present, going to present at Show and the douche bar tender who was the reason I got tontilitis for the entire following week or the fact that I went out drinking w C and her bunch of people on Sunday night.

Either way I realised the key to all of this is I have to clean my house. But before I was to implement any changes, I need to first do some good deeds to transition into the change.

I don't know why, but as soon as I had a chat w JC, I immediately had peace of mind and resolved to change.

Also, the hike on 26 Jan Australia Day, made me realise how much weight I have gained and how unbearable it has come to become for me. So I have a real questions for all these.

What is my commitment?
To be THE LIGHT, TO BE RADIANT, LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

Being held hostage or fearful is not what I am committed to.

I am committed to not seeing people as a number but a human being that I care about that I am committed to helping and making their dreams real for them.

People rush when they are not confident. I am confident that I will get where I want to go and help all the people that I want to help and make a difference to. I am committed to everyone fulfilling their possibilities.

What are my possibilities?
That I am a big person and can make a difference to other people by choosing, from moment to moment, to beat my own demons and choose to overcome and prevail my impatience and lack of compassion.

Lessons from 2013

Lessons learned from 2013:
1. F it, just do it
2. Everything happens for a reason, everyone who is in your life (still) is there for a reason 
3. Some things you just can't rush it or there will be a price to pay
4. Never let anybody strong arm you. Deal w bullies with the only way they know.  Oh and
5. Don't do stuff with psychos, professionally, leisurely, or be in the same room. RUN!
6. Whether you can, or you can't, you are right. Thank you Mr Ford.

This shall be the year I CHOOSE to deal with whatever circumstances thrown my way with a big fat grin. Whenever I can.