I AM SO ANGRY.
I AM FURIOUS.
I AM HURT.
I AM BURNING INSIDE. LIKE I HAD JUST SWALLOWED A FLY, AND CAN'T SPIT IT OUT.
Had a long stroll with AC along the promenade from Shaukeiwan to my suburb. We stopped half to look at stars.
In the past I would have been very
Fact, interpretation. Fact, interpretation!
The fact is, she said there is a girl code and she hates it when people steal her ex's.
The fact is, she got drunk, and danced with him. The fact is, she is now dating him.
The fact is, he doesn't know that I like him and made move on her.
Interpretation?
That she is a fucking bitch.
She is a self centered bitch who is insecure, attention seeking, spoilt brat, tries to transform but obviously doesn't give a shit when a real conflict of interest comes up and she always places herself first.
The fact is, she told me she will always be here for me and that I am not alone.
My interpretation is she is not trustworthy, and whatever she did for me, was just the easy bit that she was willing to do cos it was the petty bits. Come to the important life and death moments, she cannot be trusted. Period.
My interpretation, it is my own fault that I am fat, unattractive, not groomed, unwanted, coward, inconfident, insecure.
My commitment is that I am confident, bold, radiant, wanted, desirable, confident.
I need a pick me up.
Did I really enjoy her company? Or did I enjoy the idea of someone I can call my own family? The concept is nice, but at the end of the day, the only ones in this world you can truly believe and who truly loves you is your parents. Those are unquestioned love, unrivalled love, undying love.
Everything else, it is like a cloud, easy come, easy go.
It has been 16 days and has seriously affected my February. more than 50% of my production month! She doesn't have to make money to eat, but I do!
My commitment is to be a bold leader.
Picked it up, now time to put it down. What happened is what happened. Face it with calmness, with insignificance. What you are capable of is much more bigger things like bigger purpose in life and alleviating poverty. Life is so empty and meaningless and it is empty and meaningless that it is empty and meaningless.
HOW?????
SHE FUCKING BROKE MY HEARTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Believe that it will be okay cos I say so.
Whatever reason that happens is not important. Just live with the fact that this is what happened and the decision I will make will be....
I AM FURIOUS.
I AM HURT.
I AM BURNING INSIDE. LIKE I HAD JUST SWALLOWED A FLY, AND CAN'T SPIT IT OUT.
Had a long stroll with AC along the promenade from Shaukeiwan to my suburb. We stopped half to look at stars.
In the past I would have been very
Fact, interpretation. Fact, interpretation!
The fact is, she said there is a girl code and she hates it when people steal her ex's.
The fact is, she got drunk, and danced with him. The fact is, she is now dating him.
The fact is, he doesn't know that I like him and made move on her.
Interpretation?
That she is a fucking bitch.
She is a self centered bitch who is insecure, attention seeking, spoilt brat, tries to transform but obviously doesn't give a shit when a real conflict of interest comes up and she always places herself first.
The fact is, she told me she will always be here for me and that I am not alone.
My interpretation is she is not trustworthy, and whatever she did for me, was just the easy bit that she was willing to do cos it was the petty bits. Come to the important life and death moments, she cannot be trusted. Period.
My interpretation, it is my own fault that I am fat, unattractive, not groomed, unwanted, coward, inconfident, insecure.
My commitment is that I am confident, bold, radiant, wanted, desirable, confident.
I need a pick me up.
Did I really enjoy her company? Or did I enjoy the idea of someone I can call my own family? The concept is nice, but at the end of the day, the only ones in this world you can truly believe and who truly loves you is your parents. Those are unquestioned love, unrivalled love, undying love.
Everything else, it is like a cloud, easy come, easy go.
It has been 16 days and has seriously affected my February. more than 50% of my production month! She doesn't have to make money to eat, but I do!
My commitment is to be a bold leader.
Picked it up, now time to put it down. What happened is what happened. Face it with calmness, with insignificance. What you are capable of is much more bigger things like bigger purpose in life and alleviating poverty. Life is so empty and meaningless and it is empty and meaningless that it is empty and meaningless.
HOW?????
SHE FUCKING BROKE MY HEARTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Believe that it will be okay cos I say so.
Whatever reason that happens is not important. Just live with the fact that this is what happened and the decision I will make will be....
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