2012年9月3日 星期一

Day 2 after ILP 1st weekend

After my emotional roller coaster of a day yesterday where i woke up feeling a million bucks and at least 5x if not 10x excited that it is a Monday morning, this morning i woke up feeling energised. Probably didn't get up to 10x but i thought to myself, the Tao book said to 'FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT', so that's exactly what i will do!

As I was applying skin care on my face, I stared into the mirror and smirked, grinned, shown my teeth, examining my laughing wrinkles, to feign excitment for about 12 seconds, 4 seconds followed by 8 seconds. Didn't quite feel it.

Then I got on the mini bus. As I staggered towards my seat amid all the rocking of the bus, I smiled and said "Morning" to the woman sitting next to me. She smiled back and did the same. I felt good! I suddenly realised the point was to think as if they were all waiting for me to say hi to them, even though I might be scared, so were they! When i think of it that way, I didn't feel held back at all. But rather, pretty empowered.

Then at IFC station I ran into a colleague from another department. We got chatting and somewhere between his career path which by the way is my dream job I blurted out what he's been doing is exactly what I want for my life. Now, knowing I'm pretty new in my firm, usually I'd fear about sharing my authentic self. But now I feel free and liberated and have my full self expression!

Here's to a fine Tuesday morning!

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