有什么好怕的

It's funny. I had a coffee w colleague N yday just to catch up. I was being with her to hear her out about frustration with certain things and how it occurred to her that people inevitably become cynical because there are so many naysayers to changes, cos they are so complacent and / or are afraid of change.

Then for me, she said something of concern to me, just a comment about certain someone that exacerbated my existing fear I had of that person. Then I realised this morning, as I was crossing the street, that I literally, spend more time worrying and fretting about screwing up than I spend time thinking about what I need to do to SUCCEED!! It's funny, how things have panned out potentially represent an opportunity for me. And while other people may tackle it with much enthusiasm and excitement, I face it with fear and worry, thinking "what if I fuck up?"!! Also, in terms of N's comment about this particular person, there is nothing new that she has told me. 伴君如伴虎 is a never failing truth. I just need to get more present to it. N said what he/she said, there is nothing new. I don't need to make any meaning out of it.

Get off the audience seat and get on to the court! Cos I'm playing!

躲不了也不想躲了.

有什么好怕的，我们来到这个世上，就没打算活着会去！