How to be stopped in life

Last night I was very present to the very reason I always get stopped in life. My bloody reasons!

I put off messaging T for a buddy call which was cancelled because I was tired and didn't want to speak to anyone and landmark occurred as 'too much work' to me. I put off what sapping B back abt what time Ye coach call is. The whole thing abt speaking to her (on the phone esp) just occurs as a lot of work to me and I just want to avoid it, not even sure why.

I always get stopped. I'm tired, there's tomorrow, why me, it's not fair, don't feel like it, I can't be bothered.

Fuck the reasons. I want to live my life!

Next time I want to give another reason, I'm going to do the exact opposite, and just do.