The first thing I'd say today is I'm sick of feeling sick of myself.
Second thing I'd say today is I'm sick of surviving. Am going to be a winner and champion. Storm through this challenge and come out grinning.
The third thing I'd say today is I realised often times I say and do things that I'm not entirely aware of the consequences of. For instance, I said something about M's call to us for guests was hustle. Although in my mind I am clear that hustle takes guts and courage and not everyone has the ability to do it (particularly as last week I had such a tough time doing fund raising), however the perception it gave people was negative and I was not present to that. My first reaction as well, was very negative and wanting to tell everybody to fk off and leave me alone. If they didn't understand me, then fine, so be it. Another example is I was chatting w the colleague A and said he's got a rugby player physique (which he plays), then someone else senior walking past by chimed in that I was 'calling him fat'. Had R not chimed in, I would not even have gotten present to that.
This i realised, is my being all these years. If people don't understand me, then it's their problem, not mine. This of course, does not work in a societal setting where you have to work with everyone else, as a result I declare I will pay more attention to the impact of what I say.
Often times nowadays I catch myself wanting to make comments about people, their nationality, background, appearance, attire. everything, very judgmental. not factual stuff. I need to watch my tongue carefully.
630pm -7pm, this week to do qna
target 5x a week qna
Complete, email each other by friday. Shares homework - 5 benefits of
By end of this week.
Hold each other accountable
Keep on detoxing
Me - do homework in organised fashion and plan.
In life I think we each have to face things we don't like, just like for ILP, i'm very good at enrolling ppl, ie sharing my stories and communicating. but very bad at being organised and plan things out, and as a result i hate it and have been procrastinating (my whole life i do things last min and that's why i'm always late)!!
Second thing I'd say today is I'm sick of surviving. Am going to be a winner and champion. Storm through this challenge and come out grinning.
The third thing I'd say today is I realised often times I say and do things that I'm not entirely aware of the consequences of. For instance, I said something about M's call to us for guests was hustle. Although in my mind I am clear that hustle takes guts and courage and not everyone has the ability to do it (particularly as last week I had such a tough time doing fund raising), however the perception it gave people was negative and I was not present to that. My first reaction as well, was very negative and wanting to tell everybody to fk off and leave me alone. If they didn't understand me, then fine, so be it. Another example is I was chatting w the colleague A and said he's got a rugby player physique (which he plays), then someone else senior walking past by chimed in that I was 'calling him fat'. Had R not chimed in, I would not even have gotten present to that.
This i realised, is my being all these years. If people don't understand me, then it's their problem, not mine. This of course, does not work in a societal setting where you have to work with everyone else, as a result I declare I will pay more attention to the impact of what I say.
Often times nowadays I catch myself wanting to make comments about people, their nationality, background, appearance, attire. everything, very judgmental. not factual stuff. I need to watch my tongue carefully.
630pm -7pm, this week to do qna
target 5x a week qna
Complete, email each other by friday. Shares homework - 5 benefits of
By end of this week.
Hold each other accountable
Keep on detoxing
Me - do homework in organised fashion and plan.
In life I think we each have to face things we don't like, just like for ILP, i'm very good at enrolling ppl, ie sharing my stories and communicating. but very bad at being organised and plan things out, and as a result i hate it and have been procrastinating (my whole life i do things last min and that's why i'm always late)!!
for you, the challenge is speech and other common knowledge stuff, the ability to face the unknown and tackle them makes us better human beings! so good on you c! and good on me q! hahaha
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