My circumstances are perfect!

i go into tonight's format with a racket already. i didn't know we have the rc format. i would've pushed for someone else, now i have charlotte and jim. who are quite shy. regardless! my circumstances are perfect! i will run them! not the other way around so they are perfect for me!

i had a mental breakdown the exact moment you came in this afternoon to chk on us with your mug in hand. i kept on thinking i always try to do too much. and that was exhibited in me sitting in your mock this afternoon and then nearly failing my test, if not for bobo's hints. even though i eventually passed, i only made it to my 5pm conf call with the skin of my teeth. it's such a shame i consistently cause unnecessary stress to myself in this manner. I'm really bothered. i'm really annoyed. most importantly, i'm really exhausted. and i'm done with resenting myself.