Mum told me she and dad had a big fight a few days ago, and they, as usual, in fear of "jeopardising my mood in a period of tough times". This morning when I was speaking to dad, according to him, all is well cos they are talking again. I know it's not and for the first time, I feel very helpless because I'm not there for them.
I'm here but not there. I now finally know how T feels all the time with her kids.
Dad was saying oh don't worry about us, worry about work. But to me, the most important is family. According to dad, mum never recovered from the cousin incident. I really want to call him and make him aware of the impact of his actions.
My list of problems:
- I'm here and not there. I'm here but my mind is elsewhere
- It occurs as impossible to me, therefore I procrastinate
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From hereon, each day I will think of 5 past achievements I have done and empower myself that way.
1. calligraphy - won award when I was 5
2. co-founded 85 broads in unsw - organised 200 people event
3. organised donation to Nepal
4. organised donation to Bare Foot
5. piano competition winner
I'm here but not there. I now finally know how T feels all the time with her kids.
Dad was saying oh don't worry about us, worry about work. But to me, the most important is family. According to dad, mum never recovered from the cousin incident. I really want to call him and make him aware of the impact of his actions.
My list of problems:
- I'm here and not there. I'm here but my mind is elsewhere
- It occurs as impossible to me, therefore I procrastinate
-
From hereon, each day I will think of 5 past achievements I have done and empower myself that way.
1. calligraphy - won award when I was 5
2. co-founded 85 broads in unsw - organised 200 people event
3. organised donation to Nepal
4. organised donation to Bare Foot
5. piano competition winner
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