Xmas Greetings!

Dear Friends

It's the festive season again! Doesn't time fly when you are having fun??

Wish you and your loved ones a very merry Christmas and joyous new year!

I would also like to beyond the usual Christmas season 'niceties' and take the opportunity to share with you my journey this year, because it's important to me that you know what is going on with my life; but also because I want to thank you for your contribution to my life. I may not have expressed explicitly, but I really appreciate your presence in my life in one way or another, even if we may not see each other frequently.

In 2012 I have been on an amazing journey of self discovery through life coaching (as a coachee and perhaps en route to be a coach myself soon lol), and here are some breakthroughs I have gotten which I would love to share as my gift to you, my dear friend.

One of my favourite quotes is by Deepak Chopra – The past is history, and the future is mystery. This moment is a gift, that is why it’s called the present. Over the years I have frequently regretted not being more active and “out there” in areas of my life, be it work, relationships or elsewhere, participating more fully or getting to know each and one of you better, than hiding in my shell as I once did.

However, I have now come to realise that there is simply no better moment than THE NOW, this very moment, with air passing through my diaphragm, my nostrils, fingers tapping away on the keyboard, to be alive and breathing. Instead of regretting about the past, or fretting over the uncertain future, or wishing my dad was Li Ka Shing or resenting the shocking markets, the most ALIVE way of BEING is to be with the moment, and be with my circumstances, no matter what they are.

You know somebody wise once said to me, “Life happens the moment you say yes!!” It is so true, have you ever wished you did something but was stopped by your own fear, thoughts, perfectly sound ‘reasons’ of not doing, or other people’s opinions? You know, the moment I decide to give up the reasons my head was generating, get off the sideline and really get on the court to play the game that is my life, THAT VERY MOMENT I commit (say “Yes!!”) to do whatever it is I’m doing, is the moment I become alive. And that made my life so fun! As a result, 2H12 has seen me do some crazy fun stuff such as, on Random Huggers Day (a global phenomenon started from the UK 10 years ago), hugging about 80 people in 2 hours in Central HK, where I let go of my fear of being embarrassed and looking “bad”, to really be out there and spread the love and energy through my hugs; or participating in and tripling my pledged amount of fund raised in a 4km bare foot hike for poor students in China. And to my latest declaration to run a marathon by Dec 2013, I don’t know how I’m going to do it, I don’t know where in the world I will do it, but I am committed and will make it happen. For someone who couldn’t run continuously for more than 5 minutes 6 months ago, you would understand how many perfectly legitimate‘reasons’ I had to battle with to come up with that one, lol.

So, my dear friend, my point is, knowing what bold, compassionate, confident, loving, and unstoppable human beings that you are, I wish you a very happy, fulfilled and extraordinary life! Enjoy and LIVE THIS LIFE to the very fullest, from moment to moment, and get off the stand to witness and judge, but really, be on the court to play the game!! Remember, Life happens the moment you let the fear go and say yes!!! So, what say you???

Last but not least, life really is a lot of fun when you are "out there", do something you wouldn't ordinarily do, love like you haven't before, and most importantly, have the freedom to be fully self expressed! On that note, I wish you and your loved ones a very joyous, healthy, prosperous and fulfilling 2013!

For those of you who may be interested in the amazing coaching program that I participated in, it is called the “Landmark Forum” and is available worldwide. Please feel free to reach out to me if you would like to find out more. Don’t worry, the shameless plug here only comes out of my love and care for you to benefit from it, like how I did, not the imaginary toaster that I get by recommending it to you. ^___^

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Warm regards,
QY Zhou
+852 69068823

I WANNA LIVE!!!!!

I have been dangling in the air of uncertainty and disempowerment for the past month, and in work, esp the last week. Report is done and submitted to counsel and I'm just fking around wasting time.

Coffee w C, and she commented I really need to find my passion, and once I find my passion, I will be so driven and then things will fall in place. She's so freaking right. I am like a headless chicken, so unlike my M days.

Then T needed a clearing before her interview. I was really trying to get her to be present to her emotions. Why the f she's wasting time fretting about the old balding guy who clearly doesn't give sh** about her, and risking her and her family's LIVELIHOOD?? Who is she really going to be? Not trying to 'sound' a certain way in the interview, but really enroll the other party into her dream of achieving that goal.

BOLD, CONFIDENT, ENROLLING, PASSIONATE AND UNSTOPPABLE!!!

Then I looked at myself. Who the f have i been wasting time being?

Lazy, fearful, scared, undisciplined, apathetic, DEAD.

Seriously, enough of this sh**.

All well and good I'm good at talking, and having enrollment conversations so others can have a better life. But what about myself???

DJ, standup, coaching, singing, research, I really don't give a sh** what it is. Just lock it down and RUNNNNN FOR IT. I spend so much time

At the gym today I realised I paid so much attention to men in blue shirt today cos I saw old colleague V in blue shirt so I was a bit conscious. The mind really works whatever it puts its mind to. What am I really conscious about? Probably keep on thinking about running, but I'm continuing to eat crap which does not help the situation at all. and as a result, my weight loss progress is stagnating, which is even worse cos that's pretty much all i think about these days.

So questions I want to ask myself are:

- WHO ARE YOU REALLY GONNA BE?
- WHAT IS YOUR DREAM AND WHAT ARE YOU COMMITTED TO?
- WHAT DO YOU OFFER TO THE TABLE THAT IS SO AMAZING THAT MAKE YOU THE PASSIONATE PERSON?

I am bold, compassionate, confident, loving, unstoppable?

Am I really? I need to have the internal voice yelling at myself, be the FIRE THAT I WANNA BE.
BE THE UNSTOPPABLE 85 BROADS YOUNG WOMAN!
BE THE CITIGROUP BUSINESS AWARD WINNER!

BE THE BOLD, FEARLESS, CONFIDENT, CHARISMATIC, ENROLLING, UNSTOPPABLE HUMAN BEING THAT I ONCE WAS!
I HAVE IT IN ME. TAKE IT OUT RIGHT THIS FKING SECOND!!!

At the end of the day, it comes down to the fact that I'm not committed, I'm wavering. I'm wavering whether to stay in my own sector, or do something else. Stay at this job or the next. Whether I'm good enough to cover a sector myself or not.

I want to dance, but I don't even go to classes. I went to one high heel, then gave up. I am not constantly present to what I'm committed to, then how can I succeed?

So here, I declare that I am committed to:
- BE THE BEST FKING COACH THERE IS TO BE, AND THAT I CAN EVER BE.
- BE THE BEST FKING EQUITY SALES AND INVESTMENT ADVISOR THAT I CAN EVER BE, SO POWERFUL, SO RELATED THAT I REALLY SELL WHATEVER I WANNA SELL, LIKE HOT CAKES OUT OF THE OVEN
- BE THE BEST FKING PASSIONATE, LOVING, DEVOTED, COMMITTED, CONFIDENT PERSON THAT I CAN EVER BE.

NO NEED TO BE SORRY, NO NEED TO BE LOW SPOT. I AM ON THE FUCKING PEDESTAL!!!!!

I WANNA LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

Reunion

What is your message for the Class of 2002, ten years on (to be displayed at the Reunion)?

In 2012 I have been on an amazing journey of self discovery through life coaching (as a coachee and hopefully en route to be a coach myself soon), and here are some breakthroughs I have gotten which I would love to share as my gift to you, my dear classmates.

One of my favourite quotes is by Deepak Chopra – The past is history, and the future is mystery. This moment is a gift, that is why it’s called the present.  Over the years I have frequently regretted not being more active and “out there” in areas of my life, be it work, relationships or school, participating more fully or getting to know each and one of you classmates better, than hiding in my shell as I once did.

However, I have now come to realise that there is simply no better moment than THE NOW, this very moment, with air passing through my diaphragm, my nostrils, fingers tapping away on the keyboard, to be alive and breathing. Instead of regretting about the past, or fretting over the uncertain future, the most ALIVE way of BEING is to be with the moment, and be with my circumstances, no matter what they are.

You know somebody wise once said to me, “Life happens the moment you say yes!!” It is so true, have you ever wished you did something but was stopped by your own fear, thoughts, perfectly sound ‘reasons’ of not doing, or other people’s opinions? You know, the moment I decide to give up the reasons my head was generating, get off the sideline and really get on the court to play the game that is my life, THAT VERY MOMENT I commit (say “Yes!!”) to do whatever it is I’m doing, is the moment I become alive. And that made my life so fun! As a result, 2H12 has seen me do some crazy fun stuff such as, on Random Huggers Day (a global phenomenon started from the UK 10 years ago), hugging about 80 people in 2 hours in Central HK, where I let go of my fear of being embarrassed and looking “bad”, to really be out there and spread the love and energy through my hugs; or participating in and tripling my pledged amount of fund raised in a 4km bare foot hike for poor students in China. And to my latest declaration to run a marathon by Dec 2013, I don’t know how I’m going to do it, I don’t know where in the world I will do it, but I am committed and will make it happen. For someone who couldn’t run continuously for more than 5 minutes 6 months ago, you would understand how many perfectly legitimate ‘reasons’ I had to battle with to come up with that one, lol.

So, my dear classmates, my point is, knowing what bold, compassionate, confident, loving, and unstoppable human beings that you are, I wish you a very happy, fulfilled and extraordinary life! Enjoy and LIVE THIS LIFE to the very fullest, from moment to moment, and get off the stand to witness and judge, but really, be on the court to play the game!! Remember, Life happens the moment you let the fear go and say yes!!! So, what say you???

For those of you who may be interested in the amazing coaching program that I participated in, it is called the “Landmark Forum” and is available globally including Australia. Don’t worry, the shameless plug here only comes out of my love and care for you to benefit from it, like how I did, not the imaginary toaster that I get by recommending it to you. ^___^

The luck for 2013

Saw si fu T yesterday to get a run down of my luck for 2013. Here's the storyline:

• job - will change firm / location one time for sure between Feb 4 2013-Feb 3 2014
• more money, less hours but i won't be as happy
• so should try to work for as long as possible and last til at least Feb 4 2013
• Key takeaway is try my best and anything beyond -> don't fret
• If i don't want to leave, then in 1st - 2nd week of May take 4-7 days and go somewhere warm (or after 15th April), 4D3N, but best to go in May
• Alternatively go climb a high mountain in HK - the higher the better, on both days, walk myself, no cheating with cabs!

- I will have a covert positive energy helping me next year, releasing itself when I need help. So next year I can afford to be a bit Bold. Will have a side business / side job, but not full blown career.
- Best month next year - from May onwards (including May)
- Jun - to improve luck, best do some dragon boat, or less effective is to go to Macau on a ferry or a boat cruise for a weekend (fri night and sunday back)
- July, go somewhere really far - parents or close friends (Russia / Middle East), at least 8-9 hours flight (7th Jul - 7th Aug is bad for my foot)
- Relationship - Mar and Dec are particularly good
- For dates, go to north (上水) or anyone with watery names, locations itself is more important (tianjin, shanghai, causeway bay, shamshui po)

 

Calls calls calls

I made a request to my dad to call me every morning for 2 mins. to say he loves me haha!!! yes i'm so demanding! i made the first call on monday though. his story has been i'm always too busy and impatient to talk to him. that's clearly gonna change!

this morning i started to share how i'm applying landmark to deal w crisis at work. i suddenly realised the reason he hasn't 'transformed', unlike my mother, is cos i haven't shared much with him haha. all my fault! not other people's!

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Worked a near allnighter last night - til 4am on the model which i have been procrastinating on. When I was trying to reconcile the balance sheet to cfs at 3am, i was seriously resenting life and asking myself what I was doing, not doing life coaching or public speaking.

I then slept at 5am and got up back at work at 10am. I should have emailed J the boss to tell him that I will come in slightly later than usual, rather than for him to call me, which positions me as a bit passive.

I love my dad, and he's awesome!

Crashed at T's over the weekend and a d&m conversation with both G and T led me to really think deeply about my inhibitions and inability to get into a relationship. I kept on plodding and thinking and finally located the source, which appears to be my resentment for father's 'weakness' as I perceived. I was a jerk and kept on asking him whether he loved me and why he didn't show enough of it if he did. I no doubt know he cares for me a lot, but can't help but feel like sometimes he is so passive and values money much more than me (tuition costs that mother had to take a second job to pay for). Then when later mother got on the phone, she made it clear that HE WAS THE ONE who bought my first piano and my first ever computer (the old one in 1998). Also, he was the one who would go out of his way while on vacation to help me fix the sink etc. So I am very thankful. Grateful and Appreciative. I promised him that I will no longer take sides but rather, really love him wholeheartedly as I should.

Also A came over and we really talked, the depth of which we have never spoken before. It's amazing, the level of frankness in our conversation. Through that I saw that I was too insecure and prude to make anything out of anything by scaring guys away too prematurely. Also it is now clear that he was never interested in more than casual-ness. Guys are just like that, a bit of fun and not much else.

Had an argument with C yday, cos she thinks im not willing to help her, just like the old times when i was jealous of her achievements. however yesterday what i said was i have to go meet A in 10 minutes. i did not have any natural attitude of pushing back. but she was very emotional which i don't blame her. i 'm much more at ease now cos i don't feel like the need to please other ppl and get them to like me. She shouted at me for not helping her due to a misunderstanding. in the past i would really try to bend over backward to make her see that i really want to help her and its' misunderstanding. now, after i explained numerous times and she wouldn't listen, i let it rest, cos what happened is what happened. i don't need to make it mean about i'm not good enough or being rejected by her.