The only thing you can control is effort

In sports, the only thing a player can truly control is effort. The same applies to business. The only thing any entrepreneur, salesperson or anyone in any position can control is their effort. - Mark Cuban

To read: his biography

Also what made SN the US president so great?
1. She is a fantastic story teller, she can deconstruct complex stories and present it in such a way that my grandma can understand
2. She exudes ease and grace, in the face of scepticism and doubts
3. She calls for empathy - she cries on the calls such that people feel it is such an honor to be able to be part of her team and contribute to her

I can do all of that.

An introduction leader is ...

I am a stand and I'm gonna remaining standing

The most incredibly frustrating thing happened on Sat whereby this person who wanted to sign up as TS under N turned out to know guys from cross lines and switched lines instead. What was upsetting perhaps is the added complication of this being a repeat business from J and to add insult to the injury, both of the people who told him to switch have benefited from my BIs before. This made me really upset, because of 1) thwarted intention to build Thailand and 2) unfulfilled expectation that people have the common decency to call you and say well too bad, I'm sorry it happened. NOTHING.

What I choose is to be a stand for my team's possibilities and be empowering for them. What I'm not committed to is to run a racket and letting it affect my performance.

What I really enjoy is being able to meet different sorts of people through my downlines or my friends, listen to different people's possibilities as they go on to build their dreams.

My commitment is to build multi millionaires out of my team, not just cos I want to help myself, but to be a stand for people.

I vow to be an inspiring leader of love, a stand for possibilities and indefatiguable beacon of shining hope that represents persistence and never say never.

What I also choose is to be introducing myself as ZHOU QING YUAN's ZHOU, not Jay Chou's Chou.

Breakdowns and trust issues

So w N joining my team and be the first active Thai TS, I am very proud. But with breakthroughs inevitably come breakdowns. The promise of putting J under N so N can go to Vienna in time was in place for a whole week, then suddenly yday she changes her mind and wants to put J under L. The whole farce escalated until J said she will quit and not do it because she doesn't want to be a human football being kicked around. The nastiness of the whole situation is overwhelming and I was very upset, while keen to protect my downline.

I catch myself that when I am angry and try to get back at somebody, I try to retaliate and be very nasty. So I told N to call J and sign her up. I conveyed my anger and disappointment to C and A at the C3 dinner as well. Also later on JH because I have a real trust issue with her.

My commitment is to make multimillionaires from my team. 3 of them at least.

L
D
N

So far, the pilot has fallen asleep again. Which is fine, I have come to realise there is a fine balance between being a stand for people vs wasting my time.

What am I giving up?

Grudges against ppl, ie keep on blaming them for what they did in the past.
What am I committed to?
To being FUN, full of life and unstoppable!!!

That N and L go to L3 this month and D go to L2 this month.
 

HISTORIC DAY

Historic in two senses: realising my POINT OF VIEW, and potentially capturing a big market share in Thailand.

Realising my point of view and how i have sentenced myself to a life of 'I am a boy' all along. Thanks to J, yet I thought I was doing him a favor by hanging out with him, little did I know how sharp and powerful he is as a coach. Even the way I address people, "dude", "wtf", "crap", "shit" so on and so forth. The way I like squarish bags, pants, jackets (instead of shawl or scarf, this was quite shocking as i never realised).

I just realised deep down I am a girl trapped in the need to be a boy, inside the point of view that I sentenced myself to. Guys, L, A, M, they all think they can leave and I will not be hurt. Little did they know how much I hurt. I even thought I can act like a man and not care, but at the end of the day I realised I am just a girl, waiting to be loved and cared for. Oh how suppressed have I been!

Also important is realising I have collapsed my natural desires with wanting to be back in with A. The ultimate solution, as J correctly pointed out, will be to cut off ties w A in this whole FWB business and be committed to be in a stable and fulfilling relationship. No action, no results! New action, new results! This is my commitment to myself!!!

Second is N joined and her potentially starting out to be a top leader in Thailand. Seriously exciting!!! Also stressful as I really want to be of great support as a leader as well. 

CAP course

I set myself up so that my story will show up.
OMG SO EXCITED!!! LS HELPED ME WITH I AM, I AM NOT!

I AM NOT LOVED, BECAUSE I AM NOTHING!!!
the sore spot was still mum leaving for Aust and no one cares for me, cos I am nothing!!! OMG, feel so free now.

to not be stupid, i'm not loved, so it's ok for me to be fat and not in a relationship.